Whoa.

Its been a little while. I think my last entry was before Alyssa's Bday party. It went well. All the kids had fun. I believe 12 total came. Alyssa got alot of great gifts. Necklaces, bracelets rings, clothes and a BARBIE! She loves Barbies. At the party someone was sick, so all the kids got sick, including mine. Then the next Sunday Tristan woke up, puked and then screamed for a few hours. After I couldn't get him to calm down, I decided to take him to the ER. As we were getting ready, I noticed him pull his ear, so I walked over to him and gently touched his ear, he cried, so I knew it was an ear infection then. I put some ear ache relief drops in his ear and me, him and Alyssa loaded up in the car and drove the 20 min drive to the hospital. He wasn't crying when we got there, in fact he was so happy I almost left. But he did have an ear infection. So he is better now. Alyssa is going to her Aunt Amber's today to stay for a few days. She has her school physical soon. I have to get her a lunch box. She got a cool Disney Princess blanket from her Tia for her Bday, so she is going to take that one to PreK. I am excited, but nervous for her to start preK.

It's FRIDAY, AGAIN

It seems like just yesterday I wrote in my blog, is it a weekly thing now? I guess for now. I am just so busy with the kiddos. My Marine started his classes today. He had a few tests so I didn't get to talk to him much. 5 minutes is all I got last night. I hope I get to talk longer tonight and this weekend. My sister had her surgery this week and she did well. She is recovering fine. Today I took Alyssa to the dentist. I dropped Tristan off with my friend for about an hour. Alyssa did amazing at the dentist. A few weeks ago I went and she seen it was no big deal. She does however have a tiny cavity. I am kind of sad by this because I try to give my kids little sweets and sugar and brush their teeth regularly. I am really going to have to work on Tristan's teeth now too. I made an appointment to get it filled. Tomorrow is her 4th Birthday. 4 years old. Where has the time gone? My in laws are coming up tomorrow to stay the night. Then on Sunday is her bday party. I know she is really excited. I am excited for her. *hearts* I hope I see you again before next Friday. lol

Funky Friday

So, sorry I haven't been on in awhile. It's been a long week. I went to go get Tristan last Friday. Alyssa and I drove down. I was so happy to see my little man. He was taking a nap when we got there. When he woke up, he was looking at me and rubbing his eyes as if he was dreaming. Once he decided I was real, he was all over me. Then he wouldn't let me out of his sight. He thought maybe I was leaving him everytime I walked away or out the door. I visited some friends and I stayed Friday and Sat night there. We got up early Sunday and drove to my mom's house. My sister was there visiting. All week has been the same. Clean, cook, eat. I have a conferance tomorrow in Broward County. My mom is staying with Tristan and my sister has Alyssa for the weekend. She wanted to spend time with her Aunt. One of my best friends is going thru something bad, so please send general prayers out to her and her family. I got to go, I will try to write again before a week is up.

So excited

Tomorrow, I am going to get my munchkin. I missed him so much, but soooooo enjoyed the time away from him. I am very thankful for my in-laws, they can be a pain, but I love them and couldn't ask for better ones. Bags are packed and we are ready to roll. My friend is fish sitting for me, I don't want to take Alyssa's betta with us, it probably wouldn't make it. That's a long drive for me, let alone a fish. Until next week, I will be back in a few days. Have a great weekend!

Wonderful Wednesday!

So, today I took my state exam and I passed it! Go me! I did it with an 85 too. I should get a freaking award for studying and passing it all in 2 weeks. I whooped up on them. I had my people that doubted me, mostly from the business. They are crazy. I can do anything I put my mind too and I always have, but if I get bored, which is why I couldn't drag out studying, I am done. I just want to take a nap now. Alyssa is back home with me. Marine is on his way to Cali for school. Tristan is enjoying his time with abuela and abuelo. Life is good.

It's been awhile......

I know its been a little while, but I have had a long week. I have been studying all week for my liscence and meeting with people. Monday I did training, tues, I dont really remember hahaha, wed, not sure, thur, still dont remember, friday, my inlaws came up and I went to the dentist. I took Alyssa with me and she saw what was going to happen before she goes on the 23rd. She was good, but my mouth isn't lol. Since I haven't been to the dentist in probably 15 years (or more), thanks to my parents neglect when I was a kid. And then I just recently got cavaties in the last few years. Anyways, I have mild peridontal disease and my bones are breaking down around my teeth. In my case, it is hereditary, so along with not going, yeah, I got some break down. My mom lost her ALL her teeth to the same thing when she was 22 and she has had dentures since. I definately don't want to be like her. Good news is that I can slow or even stop the progression. I got a cleaning but they have to do a deep cleaning on my mouth. They have to numb you with injects for that. Scary. You get half your mouth done at a time. And it costs a total of 300 bucks. Gah.... And I should get cleanings every 6 months instead of 12 months. Then I have a few cavaties, but they aren't worried about those, they are small and they said my gums and teeth need to be healthy before they worry about them. More money.... my sorry insurance only covers 1200 a year. Yeah, military ins is da bomb. Yeah right.... Anyways, Last night I finally got an 80% on my bonus exam, so I can take the state exam on Tues. And when I pass, I will break the record for the division (I think thats the word) by 1 day. Woot. I don't think its a big deal, but hey, I can say I beat something, more than I have done in a while. lol. My In-laws are taking Tristan for a week, they wanted to give me a break, so I can do stuff. HA! My first reaction was HELL NO. Tristan has never been away from me for more than a few hours, so I am nervous. I know he is in good hands, but he IS my baby. In plus, it gives me a few days to spend with Alyssa 1 on 1. I am going to take her to a local water park, which I know she will LOVE. And the Learning Center Director wants me to bring her in next week so she can see where she is going to be going to school and play with the kids and get comfortable before she starts there. I really like this place and I feel that they do things I want my child doing and learning. Alyssa is going to have an absolutely great time there. So I am going to take her a few times before school starts so she can get used to it. So, I have been busy and I guess I am continuing to stay busy.... Well, ta ta for now.....

Skipped Saturday and straight to Sunday!

Well, I did the dumbest thing ever. I forgot to pay my Marine's cell bill this week. I am SOOOOOOOO mad at myself. UGH! The only lines of communication we have and I fucked it up. I am very upset. I have been so busy with the kids and life that it totally slipped my mind. Out of all things. I probably missed his call today because of MY stupidity. Grrrrrr. I am just hoping they havent got their phones yet. I want to talk to him. I am so mad. I tried calling it today and DUH the subscriber was not available. I paid it, so hopefully I get a call. And I can imagine he might have been looking forward to that call all week or day and he couldn't use his phone.

~OMG! I got a phone call from Hector!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't miss it. I am so thrilled. I needed it at that time. I was so stressed with the kids and the phone bill. So happy.

Its time for me to study again... until next time....

LeAnn

Fun Friday

Well, I don't know if FUN is the right description. Today, I have to go to the acedemic advisor for ECC. I might have to take Tristan if my friend is not back home yet. I hope she is. I really don't want to take his rowdy ass, but the apt. is during his sleep time, so he may be sleeping. Then I have to go pick Alyssa up from my parents. She had a great time yesterday at camp and today is water day, they have slip n slides, sprinklers and other water things. No pool, next wednesday they are going to a pool. I think they will ride a school bus and I know alyssa will love that alone. She has never been on a bus, she has always wanted to ride one. The small things in life.... I love that my kids remind me all the time about how the small things can make someones day. I try to remember that and smile and just be nice or say Hi to people, especially with my kids. Its hard for me because I get so mad so easily, especially with other people's ignorance and I just want to rip their damn heads off. I can and usually will be a bitch, but I am trying to make this world just a little happier..... Myself included. Well, until later. I need to go study before I get my Alyssa back.....

Thistyday

Well, I haven't been on to blog in a few days. Been really busy with invitations to the party, studying for my resident life and variable annuities liscence and cleaning my house and go thru toys in between. A mothers job is never done. My husband is going to be surprised hopefully. Alyssa went otu to my parents house today. A few miles from where they live, they are having a day camp this week and next week. Of course, she missed most of this week, which is ok. She has all her friends there from near my parents house. She rode a horse last night for a few hours too. She loves horses.

Manic Monday

I wasn't really planning to do anything today, but this morning I looked up Pump It Up to go over to book Alyssa's birthday Party. She wanted to jump today and they had a 5 hour block that they had open for jump time to celebrate the first day of summer. I booked her party and it is a GLOW in the dark party. She is going to love it. Then the kids and I went to walmart, yay. I had to get Tristan Diapers and new sippy cups. I also bought a fan. I need one for the living room. We left there and headed back home, but we made a quick stop to Publix to order her cake for the party. She picked out a Barbie cake. She loves barbie. I had training tonight for the primerica thing, but I had a long ass day. Khris finally came over tonight and I didn't want to leave my kids with her. I haven't been back to the gym. I feel really bad about it too. I am also way off of my diet. I suck. I feel like nobody wants to help me as much as they say they do. Everyone has their own lives, but I guess I was wrong to listen to someone telling me they would help with watching the kids. I am definately not going to be going back to school if I can't get anyone to watch Tristan. Alyssa can go to VPK. I got Alyssa some cool Cars shoes today for her birthday. I also got her a cute shirt. Well, ta ta for now......

happy father's day.

So today was long. I got up around 8 with the kids and my sister called and let me know she was on her way to my house. Anybody that knows my dad, knows the way to his heart is 2 ways, 1, food and well, 2 is not really appropiate for my blog. So when my sister got to my house, we got in my car and went to the grocery store and I went and got my dad some good cuts of deli meat. He loved corned beef. LOL, it sounds crazy, but he loves food. We went out to their house and spent a few hours there. My parent's dog, BB, had 4 puppies last night sometime, 2 girls and 2 boys. One of the girls did not make it. So we have 3 puppies. I am probably going to keep one when they get older, but I want to see their personalities first. I need a dog that can move fast, play hard and run alot. My kids will have the dog worn out if it isn't. Alyssa loves baby animals and she is so thrilled with them. Around 2, we left their house and me and Jeni found a couch on craigslist for free, so we went to get it. Well, talk about CRAZY CAT LADY. I thought it had a little cat hair on it. Um, alittle???????????? I could probable make 90 full body cat wigs out of all the hair that is on that damn thing. There is no way that shit is coming in my house. I am going to clean it and leave it on my back porch for people to sit on. I will probably get a cover for it too. No way in hell tho. lol, I got a furry couch. While I was helping my sister and Earl load the fuzzball I mean, couch, Hector was calling my cell phone. I missed it the first time. We were leaving and my friend called me and told me to call him. So I called his cell. We only got to talk for about 10 minutes and Alyssa got to tell her Daddy "Happy Father's Day!" We brought the couch back to my house and put it on the porch. Then I felt so dirty from the car hair, I went and took a shower, cleaned my thing bling and got dressed and called Khris to meet me at McDs so the kids could eat and play in the play area. They all ate then played for an hour. Then I opened the bathroom door and hit Ayvah's toe and pulled the skin back on it. She was so mad at me. I felt so bad. I am usually good about remembering about kids, I have 2, but I wasn't paying attention. I let my guard down for a few minutes and I hurt a baby, not even MY baby. I brought the kids home and bathed them. I am getting them ready to go to sleep now. Good night and good luck!

So tired.

Well, I had a long day. This morning, I went to breakfast with Jeni. Big V, yum. I love greasy, homemade breakfast every once in a while. Then we went and Jeni got her hair cut and we both got our eyebrows waxed. I need to go get my hair done, but I am going to wait until it is almost time for Hector to come home. Then Jeni came back to the house, my parents dropped off Alyssa, she wanted to come home. She has a big girl bike with training wheels now. My little girl is getting so big, almost 4 years old. Jeni went home for a little while and the guy from Primerica came over and we did my "orientation" which consists of nothing really. Jeni and her family showed up soon after and we got started on our stuff. We need people that we can practice on and I am so not into asking people to come to their house and do a presentation. I like that this company does not advertise and we only get people by referrals, but I am soooooo not a people person. I have to break out of that shell. I thought this would be good for me to meet new people too. I am going to try. We shall see. Tomorrow is Father's Day and I don't want to leave the house. I might miss a phone call from Hector. I would be pissed if I missed another one. <3

Friday

Yesterday, I guess I started on a new journey. I joined this company called Primerica. I am still not sure exactly how it works, but I am excited because I can make money. The company also pays for me to get a few liscences that cost 500-700 dollars each. Just that alone makes me ahead to have the liscences. It is helping families to get the most out of their money. Their goal is not to make money, it is to help people. It is perfect, I can work out of my home and do as little or as much as I want. I have alot on my plate and I want to be able to help out on the bills. Maybe this has come into my life at the right time now.
Well, I had a fun night last night. My parents still had Alyssa and I wanted to go do something Friday night. So I tried to get Khris to go out with me, but she wasn't having it. Then Jeni called. I asked her if she wanted to go to the tattoo shop with me to do my VCH piercing. She said sure!!!!!!!! I asked Khris to watch Tristan for a little while and Jeni and I were on our way. My stomach was in knots. It is bad enough to take your pants off for the Dr, but for a piercer???? OMG. I was nervous. SOOO nervous. So when I got to Needful Things, the only piercer that was there ON A FRIDAY NIGHT doesn't do genital piercing. So, I was so bummed. The people that own Needful Things bought Pleasures of the Flesh a few years back (where I got my naval pierced 10 years ago). The piercer's Boyfriend works at the other shop and a coworked that does genitals piercings was bringing him down to downtown FT myers. So she called the girl, Erica and asked her if she would do it for me since I came a long way and had to find people to watch my kids. So, about 9:45 pm the Erica got there and I went back with her. She did her speech about cleansing etc etc and we got to it. They measure the length of your "hood" and they find an appropiate length bar and then well, they pierce it. I was breathing normal until she did it and my body did an involuntary response. My whole body jumps and I let out this huge GASP. It felt like a pinch. As soon as it was over, there was no pain. I haven't felt ANY pain since then. It is almost like it never happened. I love it and I am so glad I got it. I recommend any woman to get it.

Of course I did.....

So last night after I got home, I noticed my mom had called like 6 times in a 15 minute period around 6:30. Well, I tried calling her back at 10, but I figured they were sleeping. I was worried if something happened to Alyssa. Well, I talked to my mom this morning and she was 3 way calling me because Hector called. His Master Sgt. let him borrow his phone and call. Alyssa got to talk to her daddy, but I missed it. Ugh, oh well. Why did I have to go to the mall? I am kinda bummed. He didn't know my house number by heart, he had it in his cell, which they take. We just got the phone # the day he left. I hope he gets to call this Sunday on his cell phone so he can call me. Well, I got to go. I need to clean up. I am expecting visitors around lunch time. I am going to try to do something to make some money and we are going to be chatting about that......

Good Day.

Its been 10 days since my husband left. I love him and I miss him so much. I finally got a letter from him today. He is having a good time where he is. My husband, U.S. Marine. I miss him, but time has been flying. I am trying to keep myself busy, but I am just now starting to get over the cold that me and the kids caught a few weeks ago. I am getting more energy everyday. I have TRIED changing alot of my bad habits with food. I have been avoiding Soda, chips, fast food, etc. Today I did cheat and eat a philly cheesestake sub from charley's when I went to the mall. I feel bad that I cheated tonight, but I have been down and it is hard to change alot all at once. I have been eating alot more veggies instead of junk. Tonight I wanted chips, so I ate sliced green bell pepper with some of my favorite seasoning, Everglades Seasoning with no MSG, It's not the same but it was satisfing. All I really want is that crunch and salt. I haven't went back to see my trainer again. She probably thinks I am never coming back, lol. I haven't had anybody to watch the kids. My BFF is busy tomorrow, so maybe if she gets back early she can watch Tristan. Alyssa went to stay at her grandparents house for a day or so. I went to the mall tonight with friends tonight. They are expecting a baby, sooooo excited for them. I just hope all goes well with it and they deliver a healthy baby. I am a downer because it is hard for me to say "WHEN the baby gets here" instead of "IF the baby gets here safely." I know the statistics on stillborns and miscarriages all to well. I hate that my mind goes to that everytime instead of being ignorant like I used to be, before my angel, Dominic was born still. I never dreamed that a baby could die in our day in age before they were born. I knew it could happen, but not as often as it does. "Stillbirth is a relatively common, but often random, occurrence. The mean stillbirth rate in the United States is approximately 1 in 115 births, which is roughly 26,000 stillbirths each year, or on an average one every 20 minutes." -Taken off of Wikipedia. Who coulda thunk it? Not me. Moving on, I don't want to dwell on the past. I love my son, but he is with Jesus now, I can't change that. I will see him again one day. Until then, Dominic needs me to take care of his brother, sister, daddy and mommy. We need to be here and living our life. Well, Good Night All.