Well, well.

Today I am being soooooo lazy. I am so exhausted all the time for some reason. I am not preggo. I want to lose weight so bad, but I have lost all motivation. I don't want to diet, I don't want to work out. Today, I have fed the kids and started laundry. I am watching the news now. I don't understand what America wants Obama to do with this oil spill. All the republicans were crying that they did not want the government to regulate or be involved in the oil industry in the last few years. OH NOW there's a OIL disaster and you want the GOVERNMENT involved???? Really? It's just something else that they can try to hold against Obama. I am dumbfounded that America is feeding into this BS. What are we suppose to do? Go to war with BP? Isn't DRILL BABY DRILL the GOPs motto? Oh no, now there is a disaster and its Obama's fault? Give me a break you morons. Its ALL of our faults. We use gas EVERYDAY ALLDAY. Oh you don't drive? Well, trucks drive to get your food, goods and other stuff where it needs to be. Plastic is made up of oil by products. We need to pressure our government to start changing our lives like, helping us find alternative fuel sources, give tax breaks to those who do, start charging big oil more taxes instead of kissing their asses. I don't really care what we have to do, we need to change. People are scared of change until we have had enough. We are not a nation of old white people anymore. We don't have to listen to what our elders say, we need to take charge and change our lives for us, our children, our grand-children and our world! Nobody else sees we are killing our Earth? All of these natural disasters can't be a coincidence. Nobody elses sees this? And yet, who cares? When we all are facing death, we might care then.

LMFAO

Well, I didn't something hilariously embarassing tonight. I sent a mass message on Facebook to all of my family, my sisters in law, my brother in law and even my mother in law and a few friends. I was messing with my one friend from Homestead telling her I was considering getting a VCH piercing. For those of you who do not know, that is a vertical clitoris hood piercing. Well, neither of us realized that facebook does a global messaging and EVERYBODY I messaged, could see what I wrote. I was and still am so embarassed. It is not true and I can only imagine what they are going to think if they read it all. Those poor bastards!!!!!!!! I laughed for about 15 minutes when I realized what I did. Oh well. Now they can wonder if I really did do it. Does she have the bling bling in her thing thing??? LMFAO. I hope I am not the talk of the family.... I went out any visited my parents today. I cheated on my diet. I don't have the modivation right now to do it. Maybe a VCH can motivate me lmfao. Good night and good luck.

First Step

Today I didn't do a whole lot. I was up last night worrying a little about Alyssa. I woke her up a few times. I also kept hearing noise in my house. I got out my 12 gauge and walked around my house and checked all the nooks and crannys. I don't worry about anybody coming to my house, but the noises freaked me out. I was standing near the dishwasher and heard what I was hearing coming from the dishwasher. I think I have a mouse. That mouse almost caught some buckshot. Just Kidding, but I was ready to blow something away. So I was up last night a little late. Then my kids woke up bright and early at 0630. Tristan and I fell back asleep and Alyssa watched TV for a little while. My friend came over to watch the kids so I could go have my first session with my personal trainer. She was really nice and showed me how to work on my shoulders and back. I felt great afterwards. I haven't felt that good in awhile. Until next time.....

Later Sunday....

I guess my day was not over. I think I mentioned my new dining room table in a previous post. Well, my inlaws never took the plastic off of the chairs. We were getting ready to eat dinner and I was in the kitchen getting drinks for the kids. I turned around just in time to see my beautiful 3 year old daughter slip and fall off of the dining room chair and slam her head into the table leg and bounce off of that and slam the other side of her head into the ceramic tile. I picked her up, she was crying and I started talking to her while I was holding her and she started to talk to me and she tensed up and passed out for about 10-15 seconds. While she was out, I called to my friend that was there with her 2 kids, my BFF and told her to call 911. They were there within 4-5 minutes, I live right near the ambulance station. She was acting normal once the ambulance got here. They checked her out and didn't think she had a concussion. I decided not to transport her. They told me things to watch for and advice. Well, good night blog and see you manana..... I start with my personal trainer tomorrow. I hope to lose weight before my marine comes home. He loves me the way I am, but I want to lose weight for me, for my life, for my children. I want to be around to be old, really old. I want to see great grandchildren.

My Sunday

Well, today I was hoping for a phone call from my marine. I was told he might get to call home on Sundays while away, but no call today. The day is not over, but I am sure I won't here from him. I also just found out some info that stresses me out. He might not have much longer in training and I have to adjust my budget. Interesting stuff I talk about, lol. My In-laws came up yesterday and my FIL is a OCD cleaner. He cleans and works from morning until he gets tired. He is also 69 years old, so I don't know where all his energy comes from. They brought me a dining room table since we just moved and we have NOTHING after 21 months of living with my family. My poor hubby was a product of the sucky economy and the "good ol' boy" system. He was unemployed for 18 months. Then he reached his dream, becoming a United States Marine. Everything happens for a reason and I am so proud of him. Until next time, my friends.

Losing my blog Virginity

I guess this is it. I have decided to start blogging. I am a SAHM with 2 kids and a husband in the United States Marine Corps. I have been through alot in the last few years. I need "someone" to talk to. That "someone" is my blog, my followers, and you. I have a few friends. Some I can trust, some I can't. I live near my crazy family. I don't know why I would think anybody would want to read what I have to say, but it is good for me to have while my husband is away. I am starting a new life In 2 days. For the next few months, I am going on a diet and I have also hired a personal trainer. I have had 3 kids in 2 years and my youngest is 19 months. I am tired of being overweight. I am a comfort eater. When my middle child, Dominic was born dead, I really started eating. I am about 240 lbs now. My goal is to get down to 160 or so. I ate away my time when my hubby was in boot camp. I don't want to be like that. I want to be here to watch my kids grow and graduate and get married. I would like to be healthy enough to have another child one day. I love my babies. I am sure there is plenty of time for me to write about my children. I will tell that story one day one I am ready. So this is me, an overweight SAHM that needs to talk. Talk to anybody that will listen. I want to talk about my weight, my son, my daughter, my angel son, my husband being gone, my friends, my crazy ass family and well, me. I got to go now. Almost 1 AM, Tristan will have me up bright and early, Alyssa will probably sleep in and my inlaws are here. I just moved into a new place, they brought me a dining room table and chairs. I have really good inlaws. Peace out, good night and good riddance.